Over a year ago I went to a workshop produced by Hay House in NYC that changed my life forever. Not only because I ended up winning a publishing deal with my dream publisher but because I met today’s guest author, speaker, coach, and all around awesome lady Nancy Levin. I’ll come out and say it that this is my favorite episode thus far of WWRadio. I am so proud of this interview and podcast. I really listened to her answers to my questions, was fully present and soaked up fully the wisdom she had to offer. Nancy shares her story including some new things she has never previously discussed publicly about her divorce and life. She is so open, authentic, real, and wise and I know you will love her honesty and inspiration. She wrote an amazing bookJump and You Life Will Appear that is perfect for any transition you may be going through, anything from leaving a relationship, to leaving a job, to moving; it is the perfect companion to any major leap of faith. She guides you through step-by-step, holding your hand the entire way seeing you through even after you make the jump…she doesn’t leave you handing. It is such a good book & you should check it out for sure. Enjoy this interview & leave us your questions and comments below.
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Did you wonder where I was last week? I didn’t post ALL WEEK, not a peep from WW-land, not even Monday Meanderings. I’ve posted Meanderings weekly for over 4 years now when I started this blog & I’ve often said I do it so religiously that if you don’t see a Monday post from me I’m probably in the hospital because I’d move heaven & earth to get that post up. Well last week there was no post, and yep I really was in the hospital. If you follow me on Instagram you know what was up. I’m just now starting to feel myself & I learned a lot from the entire week.
I’m sharing the wisdom I gained from this experience today with four steps you can apply to any situation that seems negative in the moment. To show these I’ll be using an example from my life that I’m still working through trying to turn this obstacle into an opportunity. Last weekend I unexpectantly got Kidney Stones (worst pain ever, they say it’s worse than childbirth and I won’t doubt it) and ended up having to have surgery to remove them. This experience really took me out for an entire week and here’s what I did to get back into the flow.
Step 1- FEEL, TO HEAL.
First I allowed myself to feel.
This was the authentic journaling I wrote just after my surgery. Real raw and sharing so you can see how I felt.
I ate food I didn’t want to eat
Haven’t moved in days.
Haven’t done my usual meditations.
I had surgery.
I had to take an antibiotic.
I had to take pain medication.
I haven’t been creative or even Instagrammed in days.
It’s all going to cost so much money I don’t want to spend.
I feel behind in work and my passion projects.
I’m so behind on email.
And above all flooded with guilt– what if I could turn that guilt to gratitude?
Compassion for myself and the people who took care of me?
Gratitude for the kind messages of love and support?
That would make me feel better for sure.
As you can see here, this journal entry started out really negative, but by the end I had shifted it to the positive and choose a different perspective. I couldn’t start with the positive, it was an important step for me to FEEL and RELEASE the real negative feelings I was having. Pretending they weren’t there and going right to the positive would not have worked.
Step 2- RELEASE & ASK FOR HELP.
After I fully allowed what I was feeling, I let myself release all of the above as ask to see it differently. Above is what my journaling pages looked like and this is the prayer I wrote to shift all this negativity to lightness. I surrendered and asked for a miracle. Here’s what I wrote.
I send back this large order of guilt and I order compassion, love, and gratitude instead. Please show me why this situation happened, what I’m meant to learn here and how I’m supposed to heal and get back in the flow and come back from this stronger that I was before. I release completely all guilt and negativity. It is gone now.
Step 3- GROUND YOURSELF IN GRATITUDE.
After I fully allowed what I was feeling, I let myself list out some gratitude that came with the situation.
This was the authentic journaling I wrote just after my surgery. Real raw and sharing so you can see how I felt.
I happened to be home when it happened so my mom could take me to the hospital.
My nurse at surgery was an angel and had the exact same name as me.
My friends were super kind and sent me tons of advice and love.
Deep appreciation for my body’s ability to heal.
New compassion for people with chronic pain.
New understanding for Western Medicine.
Emotional opening to understand where these issues are coming from.
Step 4-CHILL, HEAL, & WAIT FOR THE MIRACLE.
As sit here now writing this I may not be completely clear on why this situation occurred or what I’m meant to learn here. Although I do know I felt a lot of compassion and love in my heart during this entire experience and I plan to be kind to my body and use this as an opening to get closer with my body and listen more to the messages it sends me.
Basically, I know I have real work to do in this lifetime- I want to help a lot of people and to do that I need serious vitality. So now in this step we wait and listen to the guidance we get on how to turn your specific obstacle into an opportunity, an opening, or a lesson.
Thanks for allowing me to authentically share what I just went through in real time.
I missed ya WW-land. Thanks for all the love and prayers. I felt every single one of them. I’m so grateful and keep em coming!
PS. I saw this great video on the difference between empathy and sympathy. I share this post for empathy to show people they’re not alone if they’ve ever felt like I did this week and to show how I was able to climb out of it.
Okay here we go, I wasn’t sure if I should share this, but the message is important so please read. This photo is on my Instragram from 2 years ago (you’d have to scroll until your thumbs tired to find it). It depicts my orthorexia perfectly not just because I’m scary skinny for my body but because I’m holding a bouquet of kale like it’s the happiest thing in my life, which at the time kale was which is the scariest thing about this photo. When you get more joy from kale, supplements, and your body than you do about your life, something is off.
That was the case for me, but at the time I had no idea. I had no idea how mentally (& yes physically) sick I was. That’s why I’m sharing.
YOU DON’T NEED TO HAVE A PHOTO THAT LOOKS LIKE THIS TO HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM I HAD.
You could have an issue with food & your body without being underweight. Get honest with yourself, what are your thoughts around food & your body? Are they truly healthy?
I have come along way & look nothing like that lollipop girl (head too big for body) I must get honest about something… I DO WANT TO GO BACK THERE sometimes…that’s the f’ed up truth. The nastiest thing is that I still I occasional judge myself in the mirror. If I’m being completely honest, having been at that weight before the thoughts of wanting return to it still plague me from time to time, BUT NOW I am AWARE of how psycho that is, so I choose a different thought, I do not entertain that nasty thought of not feeling good enough at my current size and wanting to be that thin again. Now I choose to seek out role models who are rocking it at whatever size they are meant to be.
Why do I still want to return to this scary image above? Many reasons:
-I could blame the fact that society idolizes this type of shape.
-I could blame the fact that “thin privilege” does exist, and that we idolize the thin as “healthy” even when it is far from it.
-I could blame the fact that when I was this weight, I received “compliments” like “you’re so tiny” & “you can wear whatever you want.” (I also had many people concerned & trying to help me [save me] at the same time, thank you!) I was often still applauded for this size… & that my friends, is CRAZY f-ed up shit!
But here’s the thing, I don’t ‘blame’ anything, rather I’m grateful. Yes, I’m grateful I still have these thoughts because I realize how f’ed up they are & I was meant to share this with you & my mission is to shift this societal paradigm.
Bottom-line: I could choose to make my body my masterpiece by spending hours exercising and controlling my food OR I could make my LIFE my masterpiece & be my natural size, believe I’m good enough there, and fucking rock my life as a way to TAKE A STAND AGAINST “THIN PRIVILEGE” & SOCIETY’S WARPED IDEAL OF BEAUTY. I choose the latter, who is with me? If you are in tell me. I need a crew to do this with me if I am to succeed. That was deep. But you guys, I’m seeing so much disordering eating shit around me and I just want to help so bad it kills me sometimes. That’s my honest truth. Thanks for reading this. & Listen to this episode if you want more on my story &What am I doing to heal these thoughts you might ask? I taking IDF’s masterclass. Today is the very last day to join. Let me know if you’re down to heal this craziness with me here.
Did you like last weeks’s WWRadio episode with Isabel? If you haven’t heard that listen to it here. Today’s episode I bring her back in the second half of the episode for bonus content, but the first half is just me. Hope that’s cool? It’s just us hanging out on the show with me telling my own story when it comes to food and weight. I share my own raw insights on my relationship with food and body image. The I share some additional content with Isabel Foxen Duke the emotional freedom from food extraordinaire and coach, Isabel stopped by Wonderland on episode 009 and episode 055 to shed light on real techniques on how to release toxic relationships to food and tell her personal food journey that led her to the work she does with women today.
This episode is packed with info that is kinda radical so you might want to listen a few times to really let it soak in. Also, I get really honest about my story for the first time publically so I hope that’s cool and perhaps some of you can relate. If any of these things we spoke about resonate with you click here to sign up for her FREE video training series to go deep into her concepts or email me if you have questions specifically or would like to mentor with me.
My favorite lines & nuggets of wisdom: YEP THEY’RE TWEETABLES…Just click right on ‘em!
“The reason people diet is because they don’t feel good enough in their bodies or fear fat.”
-Binge eating can come from emotional restriction (as well as physical food restriction), ie. ‘the diet starts tomorrow’ If you are shaming or guilting yourself, you will have the impulse to “get it in quick (binge eat) because the diet starts again tomorrow.”
-Weight is a temping thing to use to control how other people think of us BUT…a. It’s not that effective because yes people judge you on your size but they also judge you on a million other things too. b. You have to ask yourself what are you willing to put yourself through to get people to like and respect you. Are you willing to make yourself miserable by dieting to make people like you or not?
-If you have a history of dieting…then when you are stressed you will turn to food and eat, but the biological response in stressful situations is to not eat. So non-dieters will not eat when they are stressed because they will loose their appetite. This response but be reset for chronic dieters. Learn how here.
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How was your weekend? I’m back with a BONUS episode of the Podcast a part 2 to the season 1 premiere episode. So get excited to listen to that Wednesday. Until then, couple things: 1. Are you signed up for my WW-land community emails ? You totally should. I send out rad stuff.
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Without further ado below are my meanderings of the internet & above are myInsta-glimpses into my past week. Enjoy and I love you.
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